Why, O Why?

So, I am not sure what my real deal is. I have been frustrating myself so much lately. I really want to change. I want to be more optimistic, more spunky, perky, full of faith! Why do I let Satan control my thoughts and turn everything negative?? WHat does it say in Ephesians? For god hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of a sound mind?..... So if god does not give it to us who does? I know the answer to that question, at least. I know my potential, I really do. I see others in leadership and succeeding and I think, what seperates me from them? nothing! It is making up your mind to do something and doing it, not giving up, being consistent, and making alot of mistakes along the way. So maybe its laziness and lack of motivation? Possibly, but more than ever I think Its just DOING it! Something has got to change, and it has to happen soon!!! Pray for me please!

Mom + Creativity= Happy Family

The Subway crew on "break" eating with dad.

"Lulu" making the sandwiches for dad.

Before Dad got home. We made a Subway sign, hats and name tags. You probabaly can't see this but Miley was the store manager. as daddy came in the door she yelled, "Welcome to Subway!!!!" Daddy wasn't sure what to make of our creativity.( we haven't been creative for a while, on the island we did our own web show for a while...) We had Payson call him and check where he was so we could get an idea of what time he would arrive at home. As always he suspected and lied to Payson and told him he would be late when he was rightoutside the door!!! So he came in the side door- spoling everything! I yelled at him to get back out there and comein the front door like a normal non-suspecting husband. (He knew something was up and tried to figure it out--sneaky little thing) The ids had a blast. Payson and Gabriella loved it.

We also did a "20 question interview show" It was better in person but I am posting it. (WARNING----it is long, but funny. full of miley announcing she has to poop in the middle, her dancing around thru the entire interview, payson making you sea sick with his poor camera skills, and much more)

All in all, we had a good time and hopefully we can have even more fun this summer. We have our own youtube channel and we haven't even posted a video yet, I think we need more practice for sure. So, get ready to see the wild side of the "Lima's"...OOOOOOOOoooooooLaLa. Gotta go watch Glee......

I Love Lucy Ball • Vitameatavegamin

she is gifted actress, hard to find nowadays.

i love lucy!

I got home from church today and started feeling horrible...again! what the heck is going on with my stinkin allerges? My nose started running and dripping like a faucet all day. So.....what do u do when u feel horrible and want to just veg? Turn on I love lucy marathon on hallmark channel. When I used to have tivo I had the entire collection of 'Ilove Lucy" on it and we would all sit around and watch it together. (there aren't many shows u can do that with nowadays) Of course my fav is vitametavegamin episode. I did that episode in college for a theater class. I was Lucy and i got an "A!'
As I am typing I have tissue rolledup and shoved in each nostril so It doesnt drop on the keys of my computer....TMI, huh? I hate these stinkin pine trees, they are killing me. I hope they stop reproducing soon. There sperm is killing my sinuses.
I am not in Primary anymore. (I was the chorister) I am now in Relief Society and really ahppy to just be. So used to being in "charge." I have enjoyed that about this ward. I am the activities leader. i love the rs presidency. they r so fun and witty. Oh, and there is a new girl in the ward, a S.A.H.M. yeah! I'm no longer the newbie. I had a breakfast friday at my house and played games and had over alot of new friends. i had a blast, i hope everyone else did too. i love company! Esp since we all fit in my new house. On the island we barely fit in the kitchen.
On another note, I think Vanir is SUPER excited about his graduation and up til a few weeks ago when he got his cap & gown he wasn't really sure he was gonna make it. I am so proud of him and glad I pushed him since he found out the farm might be closing sooner than later. Bad news, is he is planning on starting his graduate program for his masters in the fall most likely. Unless, he gets a super great job-not likely. He makes too much and probably would have to take a huge paycut. Well, we will keep praying and hoping that maybe the Lord will find favor in our famiy and help him get a good job. Alot of our friends and family are out of work. We sat our kids down and explained to them that no work=no money= no nothing. so dont ask for stuff. Good thing my kids are used to this song and dance.
Now if anyone has any idea how to dry up this runny nose, please post a comment. ciao!

So Much Better- Legally Blonde

This is the Broadway musical that started it all with me recently. This is Bailey, (not the original girl, whom I LOVE) The original actress is Laura Bell Bundy who is in the next clip called the c word. Enjoy.

The C Word

This song is from the origional lead for legally blonde. she now has out her own country album. She is awesome! Enjoy!

For Good Wicked PROSHOT

This is the finale song. It makes u cry. Probably If u watch the whole movie tho. This is a clip, so, not the same affect, huh? These ARE the original cast members. Idina Menzel and Christin Chenoweth. They have been on Glee as guest actors. Love Glee!!!!!

Kristen Chenowith's Last Popular

This is the song gabs and I performed for new years. you can watch it on FB. This is when they are made roomates in college and they are total opposites. It is very humorous.

Idina Menzel & Kristin Chenoweth - Defying Gravity

Okay, here Elphie, the witch, sings her "hit" song defying gravity, she has out a wonderful cd also that is very' women empowering' kindof theme. I love it.

WICKED COOL!!!!

I can't believe I never blogged this! Okay, let me start at the beginning. One day I was on youtube searching for one of my fav broadway showtunes. (legally blonde) I came across another broadway show...it looked alot like wizard of oz! (i LOVE wizard of oz!!!!!) I realized someone had snuck there video camera in and recorded THE WHOLE THING! So, i watched wicked on youtube the first time, bought the soundtrack and was completey hooked! I desperately wanted to go see it. I found out when it was gonna be in the area. I missed it twice. We either were broke or It was gonna be here in a time when both of us couldn't make it. Then vanir thought i should go with gabby, b/c we performed one of the songs at new years eve party at downeys house. (u can go to FB and see the funny video. I was glinda and gabs was elphie) I thought to myself, " She's 9!" I saw my first broadway musical when i was in college and I paid for it myself. I finally decided I would take her...a decision i would end up regretting.:) She was fine, it was just the usual, "when will it start? "how much longer?" "can I get the $45 tee shirt with elphaba on it?" you know, you know kids! Oh and it was freezing! I think it was in the low 20's that nite. We had little short cocktail dresses, strappy shoes, we froze! And our feet were killing us from walking around so much in 3 inch heels. It was great except for our seats were so high up it was hard to see their faces. ( Plus I have poor faraway vision) My new sister Caitlin came and we stayed at a 4 star, nice hotel! (thanks priceline-$30) I wanted to share some pics, so hopefully i can figure this out. If u haven't seen wicked, I highly reccommend it.

It's been a while since I blogged....I probably start out each entry the same way since i am so infrequent on here. I stll have a paper journal so maybe that is the problem. Good news in the Lima household....Vanir graduates in 3 weeks! This is 11 years coming!!!!! He will have a bachelors of arts and sciences in criminology. Exciting. On another note, we just found out the farm, where Vanir works, will be closing in 6 months. :( This is a bit scary. The economy has now personally hit us. We are weighing out our options and praying God will lead us where we are suppossed to be. It will be sad to leave our little home in north port. My first home! But, the first 10 years of our marriage we moved ALOT and I have learned not to become attached to material posessions. It still doesn't help.
I got back from my brother Tylers wedding last week. It was so .... sad? Like they are growing up and having marital relations!!!! AH! I cried a whole bunch. Then the drama started after the vows with pictures. I guesss thats what happens when ur mother is married to a self centered, arrogant, fanatical extremeist! Can u tell I can't stand him? Seriously, I feel like I should have been awarded some kind of medal of honor or bravery for having withstood 4 days of his blah,blah, blah antics. If u have not had the opportunity to meet Rick, then u probably don't understand my anger. Its not really him that I am angry with, with the things that happened I feel completely betrayed by my mother. He really needs meds or something to stay balanced and for my mother to be marrried to him makes me even question her sanity! I am so hurt, she hasn't even called me to see f we made it home okay. (We left her house at 10p and drove all nite to escape the madness of Rick) If I do call her I wouldn't even know what to say. If I even mention anything about Rick she will go into her dillusional state of, "rick would never say that, you exaggerate, he didn't mean it" and we will go around in circles. She will say," I can't pick sides I love you both!" To me thats bull, If Vanir has offended a frend or family I tell him. I am not scard to tell him he is acting like a terd! Her husband is so prideful, he would never apologize. he never has, for half the things he has said to me AND my kids. He never will. I think I am going to have to tell my mom that if she wants a relationship with me it will have to be 1 on 1-NO RICK. he causes problems and is in need of serious mental medical intervention. But Im sure she already knows that, thats why Im sure she married him. A "project" to fix. Well, good luck, Im OUT.